Motherly guilt cannot be avoided it seems
1 CommentWednesday, 26 October 2016
Recently I have been finding life harder to juggle.
I feel like I'm being pulled in several directions all at once. I'm a mom, a part time manager at work, a fiancée and most importantly I'm me. That might sound ridiculous, but I put myself last on the list all to often.
On those occasions where I go out alone or need to do something that takes my focus from Jack, I feel guilty. Checking my emails, going out shopping alone or simply not taking him outdoors enough starts the guilt. As a mom, we all try our best to give our children new experiences. From trying to set up arts and crafts activities that Jack spends all of five minutes on to travelling on two trains to find a new day out - I try to make sure that I give Jack my full time and attention. Over the last few months, I've been feeling guilty that he is not going to Nursery.
My partner works full-time and I work 2 night shifts a week and financially we cannot afford to put him into nursery. I worry that he is missing out socially and activity wise. Where does the guilt get us. Nowhere. I give Jack all the time and attention I can and I need to realise that putting myself first is important too. Little things like knowing I can go out and grab a Starbucks or spend some time on a blog/vlog I love but all too often neglect.
It's ok to think about me sometimes and it's also OK to feel guilty. We love our children and those fleeting moments of guilt are perfectly normal.